So, I work a decent job. Regular office hours, Monday through Friday, 9 to 5. I have a boss, but usually I'm left to do whatever work I feel is needed or pressing at the moment at whatever pace feels comfortable. I should add that I am a Graphic Designer for a wholesale sign company. So why is it, that while I do have things that need to be done and scheduals to keep, and knowing that my job is so low stress, that I seem to do anything but attempt working this week.

The boss man has been in Chicago all week. I mean, he'll be back today, but even then, as per usual after a short vaca, his mind will be elsewhere. I'm so bored here. I'm trying to stick it out because I'm unfortunately one of those people who are gung-ho about starting something, and then lose total interest after a while. I've have various jobs over the past 10 years, none that I've kept for longer than 2 years. It's not that I'm terrible at the job at task, it's just that it bores me after a while and I move on to something else.

I've been a shoe salesman, a butcher, an electrician, a minister, manager of a video rental store, and a graphic artist. I can't say that I don't know what I want to do, because I do, it just seems unattainable at best. I would like to be a Funeral Director/screenwriter/director of motion pictures. A lot of hats. While I'm on the subject, I'd also like to be a devoted husband, caring father, doting grandfather, little league coach, and owner of a small coffee shop in Anytown, USA.

There are so many ideas and thoughts floating through my head at all hours, and any one of them sounds better to me than what I'm doing at the moment.

Here's the catch though. I've got to pay for a wedding in October to the tune of 16,000 semolians. Yup, that'd be a 1-6 followed by trey zips. That along with rent and lights and heat and tv and whatnot, and I simply can't walk away from this job right now. I feel trapped, like a badger with his foot caught in a trap and no foreseeable way out, save gnawing through my own little paw.

Ugh. Anyone else feel that way?

Later On,
~The Doc~